Freshen UP.

Timeline update: April 30, 2012

I drafted my sixth entry yesterday when I was in this coffee shop in LB. I thought I can post it ASAP but unfortunately they doesn't have an internet connection. :( The bad part is, I already ordered my coffee (rocky road as always in this coffee shop). So I decided I'll draft my post while  first: I'm still in the mood for writing; second: to kill time while I charge Mino's laptop, my iPod and phone; and, lastly to cool down a little because I think it's almost 35 degrees Celsius outside.

And because I drafted it in LB yesterday, the time usage is yesterday obviously. ;)

Timeline: April 29, 2012

I missed UPLB. It's been a while since I went here. The smell of the campus never fails to make me feel at home.

Today is the first day of the Aggie Board Review or the review for the Licensure Examination for Agriculturists on July 2012. Mino finally decided to take the Licensure exam so he attended this review to help him freshen up his memory of the topics in our course. And because his sessions are held during weekends, and this is their first day, I decided to tag along. :)

The review was held on the same place where I attended mine a couple of years ago. Different Agriculture students all over the country who wish to refresh their knowledge banks and also to learn some more gather here in preparation for the Licensure examination. Acclaimed professors and university researchers in their respective fields lead the sessions.

First session of the Agriculture Board Exam Review held @ Old Agronomy, UPLB.

Weekend sessions run from 8 a.m. to 5 p.m. with 10-minute breaks in the mornings and afternoons and lunch break also. You can eat though the course of the review, but of course, not that you may attract too much attention. One can bring their food or if you woke up late and hurried to the lecture hall and didn't get the chance to grab some munch, there are available food items that you may buy inside the lecture hall. During my time, coffee was always the number one on the favourites. Why coffee? Well, there are some drowsy moments. May it be due to the speaker or the topic itself or the weather perhaps? One should be very patient and focused because one can never tell if that topic or concept may come out of the exam.

She's the same ate that sells this stuff during our time.

The water dispenser for coffee and instant noodles  - the savior of us sleepy heads. :))

Back in our review days, there is a lecture manual of the topics presented by the speakers. I had my own highlighter before, the neon yellow one. Mino told me he never used highlighter back in college but I still gave him a green one so that he can remember the terms well. Additional information was scribbled on every side of the manual but he said it's better to keep a separate notebook.

Mino scribbling away. :)

Mino decided to take the Licensure exam only this year. Why? Because, first: he worked immediately after his BS degree and doesn't feel the need to take the exam that time; second: after those months at work, he decided to take his Master's degree and still doesn't feel the need to take the exam; and lastly, he doesn't have me yet that time to have all his inspirations. ;) (Ha ha! The last part was just me). Now that he is graduating this summer, and some of his job applications (not-so) require a license, he finally decided to take the exam. I teased him that it's another valid ID and the promotion will be easier if he has a license. So I am all supportive and promised that I'll help him during his reviews. Maybe give some tips on questions and jitter problems. :)

                                                         

The future licensed Agriculturist. ^_^

L O V E Letter.

Back in the days, love letters were written on fancy stationery and delivered thru snail mail or given directly to loved ones. Some may still practice this style today, as we may call it "the old fashion way". But during this era of technology, love letters evolved from paper to emails or sent via SMS or MMS.

Let me share this love letter I received couple of weeks ago. No matter in what form they may be, love letters still make our hearts skip a beat (cliche yes, but true, right?) and smile the widest thinking of the person who wrote the letter.

As they say "share the love", I am sharing my wonderful experience. Our wonderful story. How this man capture my heart over and over again.

~~~

Random Doodles

Mino Giacomo A. Marimat

April 10, 2012, 8:08 pm

Part I: Illusion

          First of all, let me clarify that this is not me ranting about stuff that we usually argue about.

          In fact, this would be me, opening up a minor part of me entirety. And eventually, this would be a desperate plea; a need for help, for somebody to pull me out of this senseless misery that I have unfortunately developed during the past years before you colored my life.

          Let me begin by acknowledging the first frog - the bigger frog. Sure, it was a first. My first... well,  you know the rest.

          And also, my very first heartbreak.

          The only logical reason: Distance. She couldn't bear the distance, more so that she wanted to focus on her studies, one that I believe I could handle hand in hand, balanced, in harmony. But she couldn't.

          But looking at myself, I do have to admit that I had doubts of my own. Three of us bestfriends were really close, and I couldn't help but bring myself to jealousy whenever they talk to each other, with me looking from a distance. I don't know, I guess it's just me. I might be thinking too much, I told myself.

          Fast-forward to the white pout-frog. We had our ups and downs, especially during the first few months. More so when her parents found out about us. She fought for us, and eventually things were just at peace, like everything was fine even though I was around and our relationship was still obviously there. Her high school graduation came, and the distance between us became even more challenging. Eventually, she went away, and you know why.

          Another logical reason: Distance. She couldn't bear the distance, and with someone wooing her continuously, she couldn't help but appreciate the things that this freak showed her.

          But, again, looking at myself, I do have to admit that I had doubts of my own. With me being miles away from her, and the limitation of the Nokia wizardry allowing us to communicate, there are times when this sheepishly imaginative mind thinks of things unthinkable. Things that I wasn't supposed to think, but then still, my mind worked on its own. The sad part? The breakup seemed to be a confirmation of what the mind can do. It made me feel that, having felt the doubts on two independent events, two heartbreaks, it seemed like whenever I feel something like this, pain would immediately follow.

          Come the biggest frog, and I told myself I learned my lesson this time around. The distance wasn't there... at first. We were together. Day and night. But then, fate really seemed to play around me, making a fool out of myself. My own graduation came, and distance, once again, challenged the rigidity of my heart, the courage in me.

          This time, I was the one who couldn't bear the distance. I got really weak; surrendered my then-future in exchange for the distance. I gave up the chances for my future.

          But then, again, funny how fate really fooled me, as the distance that grew when we were apart seemed to have its effect on her. The butt-of-the-Chinese guy was around when I was not.

          So again, the logical cause: Distance. She couldn't bear the distance, more so that the curiosity in her grew, as how she had put it.

          But then, once again, looking at myself, I had my doubts. The guy bought her off in an online human barter in the cyber world, which she said was nothing, and confirmed to me that it was nothing. So I relented. But then, time came that she was formally introduced to him, further igniting the doubts that was growing in my mind. She said, nah. Time came when the doubts couldn't really control itself and went out of the line, admittedly, breaking the rules of privacy.

          Which seemed to confirm all the thoughts that had consumed up the remaining courage of my weak little self.

          At this point, confusion consumed me.

          I was deluded. I succumbed to the weakest point.

          My weakest point was myself.

          What made me immature was the mind.

          Which brought me to an obviously wrong behavior: Extreme doubt. Extreme jealousy. Extreme hallucinations. Extreme thought.


          Things that were brought to a level which aren't really existent.


          That's all.


Sorry love, I hope you get what I mean. Random thoughts talaga 'to, so walang direction. Point is, masyado na ata akong disoriented. I need to calm myself. I need something. But what? Help me. Take me out of this abyss. :( I'm tired of this disease. :(

End of Part I

Part II: Reality

          So earlier this afternoon... we had a bit of a fight. You know the rest.

          And so you suggested, I should look through our photos together.

          Think of the happiest times that we had.

But I thought of things beyond than those.

I thought of every smile you showed me.

Every trial we shared,

Everytime you offered your shoulder to me, as how I did to you.

Everytime I got sick and you were there.

How I couldn't even pick a spoon, and you fed me,

How we reminisced together,

             Dreamed together,

                        Planned together,

                                    And pushed each other.

How unknowingly, that sweet smile of yours was able to push me to my limits.

          How it kept me going,

          How it strengthened me.

And more importantly, how having you around me

          Have actually been a blessing from the skies.

How you suddenly appeared in front of me, as if God was telling me that

          "This girl have always been the one for you,

                   I just want you to meet at the right time, right place,

                   And have the right self."

How I became really happy nung nakasama na kita,

Nung naging tayo,

Nung minahal mo ako, at nung minahal kita.

Nung nagdecide tayo na magsama habangbuhay,

Na hindi na maghihiwalay,

Na lagi akong nanjan, at ikaw rin sa akin.

Kung paano mo pinaramdam na sa akin ka lang, at sa iyo lang ako.

Kung paano mo ako minahal ng buong buo.

Kung paano ko nakilala ang kabuuan mo,

Ang nakaraan mo,

Ang lahat ng sakit na naramdaman mo,

At kung paano ko naramdaman na ayokong maramdaman mo yun sa akin.

Kung paano ako nagdecide na hinding hindi kita sasaktan.

Hinding hindi kita iiwan.

Lahat yan, pinaramdam mo sa akin.

All those things, weren't just fragment of my imagination.

There were real.

You became real. Your love was real.

And so is mine.

I love you Jan Portia Fullante Castro. Wala na akong ibang mamahalin pa kundi ikaw lang.

Alam ko cheesy, pero yan yung reality eh.

Again, sorry, random doodles lang talaga 'to. Just had to get things out of my system para klaro utak ko.

I love you so much.

~~~

<3